For some reason, these days, I find myself getting annoyed at work more than ever before. The same tasks feel unnecessarily tiring, and I get overly sensitive about comments that I would have laughed off in the past. When I was younger, I could work all night and still show up smiling the next day, but now it feels like my body is saying, "That's enough for today." As my energy decreases, my patience seems to slip away, and I no longer have the same peace of mind as before.

Another reason is that my responsibilities have become heavier. Until my 30s, I could brush off mistakes with a thought of, "I can do better next time," but things change after turning 40. There are realities I have to face behind me, making me sensitive even to small issues, and when someone does a job carelessly, I feel unfairly burdened with the aftermath. When I think that my responsibilities are increasing while my rewards remain stagnant, it's natural to feel frustrated.

On top of that, technological changes add another layer of stress. In the past, signing a document was the end of the process, but now I have to log in, link accounts, convert files, and upload to the cloud. While it's said that I can just learn it, the truth is that it's more bothersome than it seems.

My work efficiency and speed of handling tasks are not what they used to be, and my concentration doesn't last as long. The moment I find myself saying, "Why did they make this so complicated?" I inadvertently acknowledge that I am now in my late 40s.

Above all, the biggest reason is that I have realized 'work is not everything in life.'

"Is this how I should continue living? When will I take care of my own time?" As health, leisure, and quality of life rise in priority, I become more sensitive even to the same tasks. When I was younger, I tried hard to make a good impression at work, but now taking care of my body and mind seems more important.

However, just because I feel more frustrated doesn't mean I've become worse off. In fact, it's a sign that I've learned to take care of myself.

Having moved past the days of just enduring, I now have the standards and courage to say, "This isn't right," or "I can refuse this much." Some may call me difficult, but this is a healthy change that comes from experience.

Ultimately, the reason I feel frustrated at work is that my body is not what it used to be, my responsibilities have increased, and I now value my life more than my work.

Now, I wonder if wanting to spend meaningful days with less stress is just my own thought.. I reflect on this and write this disorganized piece.